(:

when i say this, i meant it. give up ? maybe, maybe not. i dont know whether i've gave up, or im just trying to push this issue aside first. well, in short, im not going to talk/think about you for this period of time (or forever?) from this very second onwards. motivation ? no, not you. i came to realise that my motivation cant possibly be a person, really. lets put this aside, i want to forget.

hit cd, so ? things cant be any worser (if there's this word) on any other days compared to today. everything just ran through my mind & i know i've to stop whats happening. conclusion is, the higher you aim, the bigger the disappointment is. this is something that i learnt today, no more bww, no more mystery incentive. sighs, no more motivation & no more.. i dont know. im starting to feel very lost, starting to wake up, & starting to think about every little thing(s) that's actually happening, & i actually came to realise that, everything happened for a reason. i dont need to elaborate much about this, because i know no matter what im ranting here, they're just bullshit(s) to you guys. really, i know they are.

& for once, i finally realised that : i dont need a man to be happy.
how true can this be ? you people must be thinking to yourself, i know.
i can really prove to all of you, that i dont fucking need a boyfriend for me to be happy. friend(s), is very enough already (: im glad with what i've got now. except for some of those shit(s) i got from work, things came out really fine, for work, & work only (: