im kind of, back (:

wwwhhooooooooooooooooooooooooooops ! my blog's beeeen rotting like nobody's businessss already mansxzxz damnit ewwwww. okayyyy, like whateverrrzz. have beeen busy with work & stuffs & i actually get to get in touch withh my desktopppp once in a blue moooon cansxzxz. okayyyy, not so bad, maybe once every 2 or 3 days, which suck hard enoughhhh already. well, anyways, there're photos, but not yet edited, so i wont be updating them up here yet gahgahgahgahsxzxz please haveeee some patienceeeee my dearrs muackkkksxzxzxz 8)

alrightys, nothing much recently. waiting for wed to come, & its gonnaaa be a big big big bigggg shopping day for me & b hehe ! we're gonnaaa shop then eat then movieeeeee then shoppp & shoppppp & shopppppppp again hahaaa ! okay whatever. thats not the main point though. the thing is, i just got my first pay chequeeee, the very very very first pay cheque in my wholeeee life, yesterdayy mansxzxz hahahaaa ! :D

met simonT just now mannnsxz. gawd damn it, he changed so damnnnn fuckingggsxzxz much lah. lol, i dont know. maybe just his hair la, but wo bu xi huan lehszxzxz so.... i dont know. what im talking mannsxz ? hur.

anyways, this paragraph is for someone, you know who you are. hopefully, you see this. i've beeeen trying really hard to talk to you, trying to find stuffs to talk to you, trying to dig out every single little thing to talk about, but to no avail. i dont know what to say now either, maybe just a " sorry" & a "hope you will understand". well, i've beeen thinking & thinking about us for so very long time already, i think i still owe you a very very big "thank you". no matter what, im glad to know you. very, very glad. clarence (:

i loveeeee longzhenkohzennnnsxzxzxzxzxz muackkkkkkyousxzxz hehe !

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hello readerssss, im sorrrry for not updating for so damnnn bloodddddy long alrightys. sorrrrry again, cos actually im not here to upate anything todayyyy but just to keeep my blog not-so-dead hahaaaaa ! wellllll, i promise peektures in the next entry, & i promise the next entry will be asap okay ? hehe. byebyeeee, im going back to sleeeeeeeep awhile more !

laoya phone

BLOODY FUCKKKKKK, MY LAOYA PHONE IS

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ANGRYYYYYYYY F5 !

dont text me, call me ok. using b's n-gage currently, cant message i dont know why laaaa. i love samsung g800 still leh, hinttttssxzxzxz* heheeee !

b b b b b <3

hellooooo readers, the first & the last entry for today beforeeeee going over to b's. well, yesterday was quite a happyhappy dayyyy (: gahgahgahgahsxzxzxz.

b stayed over the night before yesterday, woke up early in the morning, prepared everything then back to his place. waited for him, then hit town to meet my aunty for lunch at mommy's workplace. noodles was niceee, i know b loved it hehe ! headed to plaza singapura after that, shopped around for awhile before hitting cine to meet bff & cliques. waited for bff for quite sometime, but end up meet him less than 5minutes as b & myself are going back to office (: had super duper nice bak kut teh with b for dinner, finally lOrhsxzxzxzzzz. heheeee, i ate superrr alot with bigbigggggfatfattt tummyyyyysxzxz, whateverzz. after dinner, went to dashu to meet the rest, then back home with b after that (:

b stayed over again heheeeeeee !

today was okayyyyyy. b went home in the morning first, then came back to simei to meet me (: had or lunch at kobayashi, then hit clarke quay. my pp was super uber tamade cheeebyely lousy laaaaa. whateverzz, you guys wont understand what im talkinggggg i knowwww. okayyy, met nicholas & his girf for dinner after that. superrrrrrrrr nice dinneeer, cos i loveeeee claypot riceeee hehe ! after that, waited for b to come back, then home sweeeeeeeet home !






MUACK YOUSXZXZXZ ZZZ.

colourful hehe !

whao whao. look who's here ? hahaaaaaaaaa okay, i know i havent been updating since 697346782346237895 days ago, but whateveerrrrzzz cos im busy alrightys, sorrrrrrry readers duibuqi wOrsxzxzxz.

life's been rather happening. i love my life now, colourful cannnnnsxz hehe ! i wont elaborate muchhhh about what happened recently. oh yah, dont watch Wall-E, dont watchhhh ! not niceeeee, rating 0.5/5. lol ! guess what ? i fell asleeeeep 1..2..3...4... countless times while watching the movieeee. listen to my advice, dont watch. okayy, the rest, let the photos do the talking (: mind you, they are all un-edited okay ( cos im too lazy to edit them ) ! enjoy ~

well, thats all for the peeeektures (: lol, im kinda rushingggg now. meeting B to make my passportttttttt yayyyy you know why cosssss i kenaaa BWW alreadyyyyyy yayyyyyyy clapclapssssss sorrryyyy for typing like that with no fullstop(s) & comma(s) at all forgiveeeeee me cos im lazyyyy like whateverzzzz cos im cool like thatsxzxzxzxzxz okayyyy i gtg byebye all with loves simun muackmuack blowwwww kisses to all of youuu hehe okayyyy i shall end here fullstop please. hehe ! what a long sentence, whaooowwwsxzxzxz.

chiong.

talked to C last night, cried so very much. somehow, i just missed the way we used to talk to each other, joke with each other very much. i really cant get used to it when i came to realise that we're actually drifting apart, i missed his presence & everything..

you guys might think that im so a beetchhhh. but, like what i've said in my previous entries, dont assume if you dont know anything. im okay with everything you guys want to talk/say behind my back, im fine with it. as long as i know what im doing..

today was tiring, very. well, tmrw have to chiong already. lol, another 1 or 2 more days to datelineeeeee, bww here i come heheeee ! :D im simun lor, i confirm can make it oneeee. gahgahgahgahsxzxzxzxzxzxz yay :D

byebyeee, going out again ! :D

contradicting

had a great night with xxx last night. enjoyed our food(s) & the music played in the background, the ambience was so very very good. talked about stuffs, very much about relationship(s). i really love the ambience so very much, moreover it was a really cold & windy day after rain yesterday. the weather & everything, i love.

but the bill cost us a bomb, nevermind anyways. we stayed over till about 6am, & only reached home at about 7am in the morning. was dead beat, forced myself not to sleep cos i might not be able to wake up for work later on. but, i fell asleep at around 8am. haha ! cannot tahan laaaaaa omfgsxzxzxzxz.

woke up at about 11am, thanks to jennifer for the morning call hehe ! she came over to my place & waited for me while im preparing. left house at about 2 going 3pm, headed to bedok to meet zen for lunch then. hawker ! :D after that, shawn came. trained to raffles then walked to office together.

NO ACTIVITY TODAY ):
bored bored bored bored bored bored

left office at about 11 going 12, with zen. trained homeeeeee ! (: thanks for walking me home eh budddddy, how nice of you heheeeee !

okay, im going to play.. Audition already ! :D
gahgahgahgahsxzxzxz, ok bye !

motivation, contradicting.

no, don't be like this..

don't give me the wrong impression of you, please. it shouldn't be like that, stop it. motivation, please.

problems, problems, problems

problems are piling up, one by one. was all depressed yesterday, i dont know. problems came so sudden, all at a time. almost killed me, but no. im strong, or rather, i thought im strong. maybe im not, i couldnt handle them all. i'll really try to get over every single thing that happened, i know i can. things are getting really complicated, that my mind went blank out of a sudden. but i remembered something, its not the end of the world. think of the solutions, not the problems. there's always a way out of any problems, its just the matter of time..

drank alot last night, & if im not wrong, i was really drunk. thanks to zen, mengda & annie, im fine. annie, thanks for giving me the wakeup call to stop every single wrong thing i did, thanks. im now awake already & i'll think before i do anything. not stepping into another route, but to strive for my goal. people came here for the same one reason, to success & the same for me, i want to success.

TO : ZEN

zen, im sorry. i didnt know things will turn out this way, really. i came to realise that, everything happen for a reason, it dont just happen. get what i mean ? no worries, no matter what we'll still be the bestest friends alrightys ? (: smile leh, dont emo ! dont dwell over the past already, everything will be fine ! loveyou most laaaa :D

down

i think im suffering from insomnia lor !

i cant even have a good sleeeeep last night i dont know why, i woke up every singlee hourr & like, i took super long to get back to sleeeeep. i dont know why the hell this happened, i dont know whats on my mind either. maybe its becauseeeee im down, how sad !

down because of :
work
bww
stress
mystery
md
clarence's messages
im a bitch, at least to you i am

& im feeling super duper terrible vegetable now. not enough sleep, nauseous, giddy, headache.

was on the phone with jaren last night, talking about how down our day is, comparing whose day is down-er, & i lost to him. haha ! yea. he actually won because i dont think i should be as down as him cos he's actually suay-er than me laaaaa. sibeh suay, suay until cannot suay anymore. lucky me, heheeee !

Dont always think that you're the fill in the blanks-est in the whole wide whole, cos remember, there's always someone who is fill in the blanks-er than you do.

(:

when i say this, i meant it. give up ? maybe, maybe not. i dont know whether i've gave up, or im just trying to push this issue aside first. well, in short, im not going to talk/think about you for this period of time (or forever?) from this very second onwards. motivation ? no, not you. i came to realise that my motivation cant possibly be a person, really. lets put this aside, i want to forget.

hit cd, so ? things cant be any worser (if there's this word) on any other days compared to today. everything just ran through my mind & i know i've to stop whats happening. conclusion is, the higher you aim, the bigger the disappointment is. this is something that i learnt today, no more bww, no more mystery incentive. sighs, no more motivation & no more.. i dont know. im starting to feel very lost, starting to wake up, & starting to think about every little thing(s) that's actually happening, & i actually came to realise that, everything happened for a reason. i dont need to elaborate much about this, because i know no matter what im ranting here, they're just bullshit(s) to you guys. really, i know they are.

& for once, i finally realised that : i dont need a man to be happy.
how true can this be ? you people must be thinking to yourself, i know.
i can really prove to all of you, that i dont fucking need a boyfriend for me to be happy. friend(s), is very enough already (: im glad with what i've got now. except for some of those shit(s) i got from work, things came out really fine, for work, & work only (:

to : zen/zhenlong :D

i've just got to know this kid really well recently & my impression towards him totally changed. he's totally a different person from what i've expected, from how i really think of him since few years back. i used to thought that he's one of those typical useless kiddos who're out slacking in their red skinny jeans & step one label kind of person. when i really got to know him well, he's really one person i can really respect (: lol, really. well, thats why we always say, dont filter. dont judge a book by its cover, this phrase is super duper extremely true (: bro, im really glad to know you. thanks for being there for me, listen to all my rantings these past few days. going to work together, meeting after work for some prata session, eat my shareeee when i cant finish. hahahahaaaaaaaa ! lol, you're the best laaaa buddy, loveyou okay heeheheeeee !


again, dont assume. he's my buddy, thats all. motivation will still be motivation, no changes hehe !

ceedeeeeee ~

whao, my blog's beeeeen rotting since i dont know when & its like, entries are getting shorter & shorter & shorter & shorter.. i dont know, lol. life's getting better & better as each day passes. obstacles, ups & downs, i still have to face them no matter what. all these are just part of our life, isn't it ? (:

life's been really great, superb. i love (:

work

motivation might not be motivation anymore.

clarence/clarence's bike

zen/zhenlong

jialiang

stress
500/1500

friends

east coast park

down(s)

sad(s)

incentive

bww

fight

disappointment(s)

teared/cried

time

slack

dashu

dorks

well, bascially these are what've happened these past few days. i wont talk much about it though, its for you to guess & for me to know (: all i know is to, buck up ! & i know the last point is really fucking rude but i dont give a fuck to it, really.. dorks, bark, woof.

PEEKTURES



zen & jialiang ~

GOODNIGHTS !