I want you back.

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I woke up in the morning, feeling so empty. I know its enough that i can actually get into sleep, it is good enough already. The first thing i did the moment i woke up was, i turned my head to see if you're sleeping beside me like you always do. No, you weren't there anymore. How could you, leave me alone here. I miss everything, every little things, with you. I wonder, do you still feel the same towards us ?

Don't you miss those times whereby we'll just go anywhere after work ?
Simpang Bedok for supper ?
Pasir Ris Park for supper ?
Ehub for movie ?
Ehub for our favourite Super Dog ?
And, i seriously miss Wall-E a tons.
Although it was the most boring movie ever, but i've watched it with you. You were beside me and i thought everything was great. And that was the day we got together.
And, im still waiting for you to ask me out to watch the RedCliff 2. You've always wanted to watch that. And when are we going shopping at town ? You've said after Cny, is that date still with me ? ):
I miss having you by my side, will you come back to me ?
Friends told me that i'm right now hanging on to a thread, it might just snap anytime.
But, i'm still holding on. I'm still struggling, and trying hard to get back everything we've lost.
Do you still remember the lightsticks and those candles whereby you've had a hard time lighting up ? The heart-shaped candles ?
I still do remember them all.
You've said this :
"Heart Shape Candles represent my Love for Simun!
Light Stick represent that i will hold her hand neva let go , walk together and overcome everything infront of us!"
Isn't it, sweetheart ?
But why, everything is just not what you've said. You've let go of me, and you've left me alone struggling hard here. We're supposed to overcome it together like what you've said, isn't it ?
Oh, and not to forget, our hamsterbaby (:

Sighs, these might be just bullshit to you. But every single thing we did, is still so important to me. I wouldnt want to just get over it and just forget about you. I know it just takes time to forget someone, but i didn't even want to get over it. I don't want to get over it, do you understand ? Cos, everything's still so important to me, including you. I wouldn't want to forget someone who's been sucha sweetheart to me, i don't bear to. Maybe we just need sometime to cool down, that's all. I don't believe that this should just end like that, its so unfair. Well, a happy 5th month anniversary to you, my sweetheart.

I'm a happy girl !

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Daddy and Mommy, thanks for being by my side, whenever i need someone to talk to. Thanks for being there for me, whenever i need a shoulder to cry on. Despite the way i've treated both of you when i've got a boyfriend, both of you still cared for me so much, concerned about me and all my emotions. I've been neglecting both of you, who loved me so deeply, everytime when i'm attached. This time, it was worse. Sometimes, both of you didnt even get to see me for more than a week. I know i was way too over, i came to realised that only Daddy and Mommy really do care for me when something happened, be it physically or emotionally. I cried so hard whenever they talked to me after the breakup, i did. But guess what, its not all about missing my once-my-another-half, but its all about the guilt that i felt, towards them, my daddy and mommy. I just feel really guilty towards them, talked to them in some really rude manners, when they're the ones who really cared for me. Well, come to think of it, i should just go on with my life and stopped dwelling upon the past. Like c'mon, i dont think i will not be able to get over it. Its just the matter of time, isn't it ? Well, i may seemed really weak now, but i can be really strong the next moment. Okay, i'm done with. And i rather i'd love my loveliest family more, than anyone else, out there. I'm pretty sure i'm cool with what've happened, no point crying over spilt milk. I'm a happy girl now, and i love my family, very much !

Mom told me something just now, and i was totally depressed ): She told me that we might be moving over to Sembawang, really soon, what should i do ? I really can't let that to happen ):

Its not that i've got over it already, i just want myself to be at least a little happier.
You've hurt me bad enough, i just can't think anymore.
Do you know how heartbroken i am ? Sighs.
I really want you back, i really really want you back.
I miss those times whereby you hugged me to sleep, and kissed me on my forehead.
When are you coming back to me ?
Sighs, i'm sorry, i started it all.

Coolsxzz, i've just wiped away all my tears. Why ? Cos' this is gonna be a happy entry :D

Alright, nothing much today. Headed home early in the morning, was feeling really tired and sick. Talked to G on msn, i thought he was really nice to hear me rant and rant and rant non-stop. Hahaha, same to A, J, S, D. Well, they've heard me rant so much, thanks for the listening ears people(s), i'm fine now ! (: Okayyyyy, so S texted me for lunch this morning at around 11am. So i was pretty cool with it, and met S at Simei, 1pm. Again, i was late ! Hahaha, i'm always late -.- Well, went to Tampines Mall, and actually wanted to lunch at Jack's Place but ended up, we lunched at Pasta Mania again. Had a good chat with S, after our meal. And, S suggested a movie after that, Bride's war. Okayyyyy, i really did enjoy the movie throughout, it was so goooood ! Laughs, like 4/5 stars rated ?! Lol, love it ! A totally kickass one i must say, so for those who've yet to watch it, go watch it please ! :D

Movie ended at about 4plus in the late noon, called mommy and met her at the foodcourt located near at the interchange. Waited for her to finish her lunch, then went over to Toy'r'us to get her Hula-Hoop. Laughs, she wants to slim down ! Super cutesxzz, so after that, we've been carrying that hoop all the way -.- Accompanied mommy to shopped around, then headed to Century Square. She got herself a pouch, before going to buy her TOTO. Took a bus back to Simei after that, alighted at Eastpoint. Went to Watson's and bought my mascara, then she bought her nail polishes. Lol, she's getting more and more hiao already lorrr !! Okayy whateverz -.- Went to the bakery to get some bread, and headed home right after (:

Okayyyyy i know my entries are like, starting to get really boring again but there's really nothing much i can do. Bahhhhhhhhh. Alright, i think i should just end it here. Will updateeee again really soon alright, xoxo !

ended.

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It was so sweet, the feelings' so strong. Yet, good times just don't last. Idk, i just hope everything was just a nightmare, which i can just wake up and receive a kiss from you, on my forehead, with those words coming out from your lips, "It's gonna be alright, baby". Its just like a de javu, i cant believe it but something much of the same, came to my dream, few weeks back. I know, i know im losing you already, yet i took the first move. I was so paranoid about stuffs, i just couldnt get things right. Yet, i want you back so badly. I know i'm being really contradicting now, but all i know is that, i want you back so badly. But no, you don't want me back anymore. Its the 7th of February tmrw, a happy 5th month anniversary in advanced for both of us. And, another week more to the lovely valentine's day, whereby sweet couples will be all over the streets. I wonder, where will the both of us be ? Aren't we supposed to be together on this day ? I've been planning on what to do and where to go on that day already, how about you ? Sighs. Well, i guessed i can't hold you back anymore, thanks for loving me these months. You were sucha sweetheart, its just me that have been taking advantage of you when you gave in to me too much. I've created this mess, and what i have to do, is just clear it, clear the mess. Hopefully i'll be strong enough, its just the matter of time. Takecare, and i really did cherish you, so much. I just couldn't believe that we just ended like that, it's so.. unfair. It all happened too sudden, sighs.

I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side

With loves, Simun.

Love yesterday !

Hellooooooooo world ! Alright, its now 4:31pm. Like woahhhh, i've been playing Pet Society for hours mannnnsxz. Hahahah, yeahhhh and im back to Pet Society fyi :D Welllll, all thanks to jenniferrr okay ! She kind of helped me to hackkkkk my coins and paw pointssss. Coollsxzzzz, i've spent like 300k already, and now i'm only left with like, 44k ? Which is pretty pathetic -.- Anyhowwwwww, i've spent the coins on almost a hundred of GoldBoxes, and some other furnitures and decos to decorateeee Bunbun and her house ! :D Lol, Bunbun's my pet btw, she's super pretttttty okayyyyyyy. Well, i gifted quite a number of things to Babyyyyy and Joanna, lol ! Joannna was like super happy lahhhh, cutesxzz.

Okay, whateverz. Only those who uses Facebook, knows what's Pet Society isn't it ? Lol, Pet Society rawksxzz so much, pleaseee \m/ \m/

Well, yesterday was a goood day because Baby dont have to go backkkkk for his liondance thingyyyyy ! :D So, after he woke up at about 1pm or 2, he texted me and i cabbed over to his placeeeeee as i'm bringing our hamsterbaby back to his place. So like, i was carrying that big hamster cage throughout the whole journey -.- Okayyy, then baby came down to help me with the carrying of the cage. After leaving the cage at his place, we went to one of the neighbourhood's salon to get his hair, trimmed. Lol, Babyyyy's new haircut is, SUPER CUTEEEEEESXZZ LAH ! Hahahaha, we both were like laughing and laughing and laughing. But seriously, its not that funnyyy lah, its just that both of us cant really get used to it. Lmao, will take a picture of him soon alright, hahaha !

Decided to take bus 28 to Tmart then. And while waiting for the bus to arrive, we saw Adi -.- Lol, i was shocked. Well, anyways, took a bus to Tmart. Baby wanted to get his eyebrows trimmed first before going to the lanshop but the shopowner was like : Uhhhhhh trim eyebrow ah ? Come back again at 7pm can ? Lol, so we went for langaming till its about 7pm then again, we went to the shop. Again, we have to wait, for another 40minutes -.- Lolllllll, we were cool with it as the lanshop's just beside it. Soooooo, we went back to the lanshop again till its about 40minutes later, baby asked me if i want to tag along with him to trim his eyebrow and i asked him to go over himself cos im in game. Laughs, bad right me ?!! Lol, yeahhhhhhh i know i feeeeel rather guilty already but its like, Helloooo(!!), the shop is just beside -.-

So, after trimming his eyebrow, he came back to the lanshop for one more game of dota, which ended at about 9:20pm. Cabbed to Ehub then :D Wanted to catch Red Cliff 2 but ended up watching The Wedding Game instead. Lol, not too baddddddddd, although i really dislike Fann Wong since years back -.- Well, i wont say this film is a very good one, but it is definitely better compared to Love Matters, which is totally zzz. Idk, but Love Matters' a movie that i really feel that i'm like wasting my money watching. Lol, i'll rate The Wedding Game at about 3/5, and Love Matters at about 1.5/5, which is rather pathetic -.- Hurhurhur.

Okayyyyyy, movie ended at about 11plus or 12, took bus 21 back to Baby's place. Cleaned our hamsterbaby's cageeeeee before going to bed ! :D Baby's the sweeeetest, love him bestttt.

Alright, i might be going for an interview at Raffle's Place tmrw, so.. wish me luck alright !! Laughs, you guys must be like, cant believe what you're seeeeeing right. Lol like wtf, Tessa's getting a jobbbbb ?! Lol, and yes, me, Tessa, is getting a job ! :D Lol, alright i think i shallllll end here. Byyeeee lovelies, xoxo !

I WANT A LABRET PIERCING, AGAIN !

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Okayyyyy i somehow wanted this shit since like, last year after quitting school at around the month of July or August, cant really remember. Wellllll anyways, what i think is, if i really want to get this, i'll take out the piercing on my tongue so i wouldn't loooook like someee chaOahLiansxzz out there. Ninabey.

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Can someone, just someone, lend me a shoulder ?
All i need, is a shoulder for me to cry on.

Eye-makeup Tutorial's and the updates for the weekends

Hellooooo all ! I'm back after so many days, with the eye makeup tutorial, finally (: BUT, im sorrrry that i've actually forgotten to take down one or two pictures while im doing my eye, so please pardon me. But i guessed the overall's quite alright, its quite understandable, hahah ! Oh, and hopefully you guys will not be freaked out by those ugly photos of me, without the eye-makeup and all, they're pretty scaryyyy i warn you first ! Hahaha, and i actually drew my eyebrow first cos aku got no eyebrowwwwws and aku tak suka to take photos without eyebrow ! Laughs. Well, here you go :

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Firstly, choose a light colour eyeshadow as your base (i'm using a white eyeshadow as the base and i think i love it pretty much). Apply the base colour all over your eyelid, and right up to the eyebrow.



And, it will turn out like that. Don't fret a little, i know it looked rather wierd and it actually makes your eye looked smaller but, hey(!!) thats not the end yet ! (:



Next, apply the eyeliner on your lash-line (i'm using a pencil eyeliner). Okay, i'm sorry for the really thick eyeliner i've applied BUT, there's something that i really need to explain here. If you're a double-eyelid, you can just simply draw a line across your lash-line, a thin one. But if you're a mono-eyelid (which is also know as the single-eyelid) like mine, a thicker eyeliner applied is actually a trick to make your eyes looked bigger and you'll actually look like a double-eyelid instead of a single one. Thus, im applying a thicker eyeliner, on my lashline. There's no need for the lines to be very neat, the eyeshadow will stilll have to go over it later on.



And tadahhhh(!!), it'll look like that after you've applied your eyeliner (: Wait, thats not the end yet !



Then, apply a darker-coloured eyeshadow over the eyelid (for me, i'm using a metallic black). You have to go over the eyeliner to actually blend them well. If you think the overall is actually too dark for you, use a light colour like brown, it will still look nice. Note : Please be careful on the fall-outs, place a tissue right below your eye when applying the darker-coloured eyeshadow to prevent the fall-outs of it to smudge.



Okay i know im not using a tissue but i dont have another hand for me to use the tissue, its either to snap the picture, or to hold the tissue, thats why. Sorry, but i guessed most of you do understand what im talking about, right ? Hahah ! Okayyyy and there's another thing that i've to apologise as i've forgotten to snap a photo of me, closing my eye after applying the darker-coloured eyeshadow.

After applying the darker-coloured eyeshadow, apply the eyeliner on your lash-line again BUT, not a very thick one my dear(s). Just a thin-but-not-so-thin line, will do ! Lol, hopefully what i've typed is understand-able because, i've forrgotten to snap a photo of me closing eye, after applying the eyeliner, again -.- Sorrrrrry, but its actually the end of the tutorial and here's the outcome :



Alright, i didnt include the applying of mascara in the tutorial above. But when you're trying out the above, just end up the whole eye-makeup by applying mascara and remember to clean up the mess around the eye area ! :D Hopefully this will help you out a little, xx ! Im really sorry about those pictures, but hopefully the above will still helps ! Its really easy and all you need to do, is to blend it well, thats all.

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Alright, thats all for the tutorial 8)

Okayyyy, right now im just going to somehow do a quick update about the past two days, Saturday and Sunday.

Saturday was totally boring for me. I've actually spend the whole morning/afternoon/night with the desktop, viwawa-ing and working on this new blogskinnnn (hopefully its better than the previous one) till around 9.30pm when i went to meet Alibaba at her void deck, just to walk to Eastpoint together -.- Coolsxzz, so the moment we reached Ep, we parted. Roflmao ! Ehhhh not funny lorrrr, whateverz -.- So the moment i stepped into eastpoint i'm alone and i think that i'm so gonna invest in more mascaras and eyeshadows and eyeliners and blushers and foundations and lipgloss and and.. and whateverz cosmetics and that is why, i've spent like almost 60 on 3 things in the Watsons for just within like, a 10minutessssss ?! Damn it, i actually spent that Fifty-Eight Dollllarrrrrs and 95centttts on those unneccessary stuffs for god knows what reasonnnnnn _l_

So, i was worth like about 53.6293567968472369472689 dollars the moment i left watson and, i was supposed to meet baby at that time !! So he was late meeting me, but yet, luckily i dont have to travel all the way to Hougang to meet him because i'm supposed to meeeet him there as requested. Hahahaha, a call from baby actually makes my night ! Lol, he rang me up and asked me to just stay at Eastpoint to wait for him cos he's in the cab from hougang on the way to fetch me up to.. Tampines mart -.- For langaming, yes -.- Okayyyy so whateverz i rather stay at Tampines lorrrr cos my eyes were so dry alreadyyyy due to the lousyyyyy Freshkon lenses ! Anyboby have got better brands for contact lenses to intro ????? <-------- My tagboard pleaseeeeee !

Oh back to.. Saturday. Ah, so i've actually waited for baby to come over. I sawwww Luppppp whileeee waiting for baby which was goooood cos i thought we did some catching-ups and i only realised it was all craps that he's talking about -.- Lameeeeeeeeee. Okay nevermind, i think nobody actually understands what the f im talking about so just ignore me alrighhhhht. Hehe, so baby arrived in awhile, boardddded the cab and then to Tmart -.- Endeddddd at about 12.30am, back to babyyyy's place and sleptttt !

Coolsxzz, see lah sleep so late, no wonder next morning overslept ! -.- Lol, i was supposed to wake up at 6am in the morning then wake babyyy up after im done with everything but, i only woke up at 7.30am -.- So everything was kinda rushhhhh and we took a cab over to Andy's place to pick him up before hitting TengGhee. The first and second placeeee their liondance troupe went to were actually my relatives' placeeee, that is why i tagged along with baby to TengGhee in the morning. They went to both my aunties' placeeeee for cai qing, then after everythingggg instead of leaving with baby, i stayed at my aunty's place as we're meeting my family and the rest to prayyy later on in the afternoon.

babyyyyy's in the lion nearer to the camera ! :D

So, headed to one of the temple near Toa Payoh to meet my family and the rest of the relatives to pray. Saw quite a number of familiar faces there, haha ! Everything ended at about.. 3.30pm and we've to rushhh home as baby and his lion danceee trouple coming to our placeee for cai qing at 5.30pm. Lol, our relatives came over to our placeeee also lorrr. So, reached home at about 4plusssss. Coolsxzzz mommyyy and daddy shifted the sofaaa from the hall to my room as the liondancers were comingggg, if not the hall will be too squeeeezy for them. Lol !

Finally, the clock striked 5.30pm and the liondancers (including b) reached. Lol, my familyyyyy and relatives all super hyperrrr one lah -.- Lmaoooo, even some of the liondancers went crazy with us lor ! Lol, will post up the video maybeeee in the next entry or later on :D Andddd, my houseee damn special cannnn, cos they ended the cai qing with partyyyy popperrrr coming out from ahjo's lionnnnn, lol coolsxzzzz. Lol, babyyyy was in another lion with Qingxiong ^^ Okayyyy, so now you know, there's 2 lions for us also, and we had a hard time cleaning up the mess ! -.- Thanks to the party poppers, lol !









Okay whateverzzzzzz, i know not everybody understand what im talking about lah. But nevermind -.-
And i think, i should end this entry hereeeee as i've spent like almost 2hours typing this entry already.
Byebyeeeeeeee, xoxo !