LOVE . SEX . MAGIC: Absence makes the heart grow fonder

It wasn't at all a good day today. Of course it was great meeting up with my girlfriends, but everything just appeared so boring to me, both boring and upset. Sighs, i really wish to wake up from this nightmare soon. I don't want to be a Sleeping Beauty anymore, i don't want to. But, where are you to kiss my forehead, and wake me up from this nightmare ? I'm really all scared and depressed here, can you come back to me in your horse of white, to rescue me ? 'Help !', i need to wake up, really soon. When are you coming back ? I'm still waiting for you, to rescue me. Sighs.

Everywhere i went today, i see you, and its really torturing for me. Well, Valentine's day is coming, and what i see was, gifts everywhere. Where's the bouquet of roses you've promised, Sweetheart ? I was all depressed. I don't understand, why it just seemed like nothing happened at all, to you ? To you, as for what i can see, its :-

Like, the WE don't even exist before;
Like, we did not even get together before;
Like, the past 5 months were nothing to you;
Like, everything was just thrash to you;
Like, I was nothing to you at all;
Like, a break-up is just a break-up;
Like, you won't miss me at all;
Like, you won't miss those times we had;
Like, I've not been part of your life;
Like, you're brainwashed;
Like, i'm your old phone, F480 which you just don't want it anymore after you got your Samsung Omnia;
Like, you don't miss those nights;
Like, you don't even miss those hugs;
Like, you don't even miss those kisses;
Like, you don't even miss those sweet times we had;
Like, you don't even miss the Muackyouxzz;
Like, you don't love me anymore;
Like, you did not even know me;
Like, who is Simun ?;
Like, i'm only a random stranger in your life;
Like, you did not even love me before.

But, everything to me, it seemed so different. It just seemed like you're still going on well, like things are going on really good for you. I might sound strong before, but i'm really afraid of being alone. I just can't get over everything like that, i don't want to either. I just dont know why you can just get over this so.. easily. I would want to know how you did it. Do you still miss me, like you always do ? And yes, i did, i did miss you, not like i always do. Cos, i missed you more this time round. I missed you, i missed you, i missed you. I want you back, very badly, very much. Why are you just giving up on everything, how did you do that ? I'm all heartbroken, i know i've lost you. You're still, so special to me. You're still the one i want most, do you know that ? I miss those nights munching titbits with you, i miss those walks from tampines mart to your place, i miss you calling me Bi, i miss you saying Muackyou to me, i miss kissing your forehead, i miss those warmth hands which were held so tightly to mine, i miss.. i miss.. i just miss basically everything happened in the past 5 months, with you. I always remembered how you tried to cheer me up, whenever i'm down. I remembered how you always hug me, when we're asleep. I always miss that hug. I miss you, i really feel terrible inside me. I've tried to be strong and all, but i've failed i know it very well. Will you still come back to me ? I don't want this relationship to end just like this, i'm not happy. You might think that i'm sounding really pathetic and all, i can't be bothered with all my image and ego anymore. All i know is, I need you back very much, kzl. Do you still.. remember me ? Sighs.

I STILL WANT TO GO MANY MANY PASAR-MALAM(S) WITH YOU ! ):

I dont want to talk much about today. I didn't really know what's happening around me, and i just bought a pair of shoes at the very last minute in town, to make myself feel at least a little better. But still, i'm far from the word Happy, still very very far from it.

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